September 2008
I have nothing to be negative about today. I’m actually really happy. But I didn’t take a walk by myself around the neighborhood. I’ll do that maybe tomorrow.
I’m not in the mood to do my homework. When I really, really should. I want to too eat, but I’m too lazy to go downstairs. Oh well, I’ll just lose more pounds and eat at buffets in the end. Oh dear.
Anyways, touché. You did well. Hitting your hardest at where it most hurts. I’m not even sure. I understand why you guys won’t tell me. It’s just hard to...
Looking at my quote below, I want a manfriend, not a boyfriend. Hahahah.
Anyways, I am finally starting my homework. And it’s eight minutes to midnight. Sophomore year isn’t going academically well. I can tell.
I had a shit load to write here but I will probably take an hour on it. So I’ll just do my homework now.
“Teenagers… the boys live for the present. The men live for the future.”
It’s 10:43 right now and I’ve been putting off my English homework for a while. Anyways.
I believe I am very strong. I’m not able to lift weights above my head or move boulders, but here’s what I am capable of doing. I’m able to throw away something that I loved dearly, but at the same time, was a very suicidal thing. I just think it’s downright cute that...
My best friend is named Rebekah. She is amazing to me in so many ways. If you don’t love her, it’s okay, because my love for her will make up for it anyways.
“Modesty is just so hard to find.”
– Jonas Brothers’ Love Bug
And I don’t mean clothing modesty, although that’s important too. I break that rule all the time. Oh, I honestly try not to. But I would have to throw away a lot of clothes. I mean the other kinds of modesty, like the way you act, speak, and express yourself. To not act like an immature jerk. It’s just an embarrassment to your mommies and daddies or guardians who did so much to...
Anyways, my three favorite words together is “Love is forever.” It may be a lie or a half-promise of some sort later, but I got to say it’ll make me cry any day, any time. Thank goodness for tear-resistance make-up!
My dear, I don’t want you to be my friend or love me again. I only want the plain, bare truth. So thank you very much and come back when you allow yourself to.
I’m feeling very bubbly. Today is a very good day. Would you agree with me?
I feel like it’s a mission for you to make me cry every night and make me feel bad. I just want to talk to you like a real friend. But instead you bring it up and then make me go insane.
Smoke and drink? Go ahead. I trust that you’re making the right decision. I just feel like you’re going to kill yourself in the end. That will ultimately break my heart into a million pieces.
I feel like pissing off a whole group of people. Or maybe just one person. That’d be fun. But I know I’m more mature than that. So, get to my level, stupid boy.
I just finished my history notes. Now math…
Meet me! The queen of procrastination. Bow down to this lazy ass.
When I grow up, you’ll see what will happen. After one hundred used condoms, one surprise, and the many times you have to try to somehow get birth control.
Sex is a stupid thing. You only have when you should. When you know it’s right. I say, “Ask to marry me first. And then I’ll give you the best night in bed you’ll ever have.” That’s not to anyone, by...
I wonder if anyone actually reads this. Hmmm, I wonder…
Anyways, I’m pretty mad and tired. And I guess I’m concentrating more on being tired than mad. So skipping the mad part for now, school was actually okay today, except I was falling asleep and my eyes were sore from crying last night.
I’m going to a field hockey game on Friday because the head counselor at my...
Schmool started. And it’s already a drag, yenno. But it’s the first weekend on the school year, and instead of going out, I have homework. Of which I’m, of course, not doing. But I want to go to somewhere else.
I’m sick of being home with my family. But there is no friend from school that I want to be with at my house. It’s not that I don’t trust them or I...
